One Tree

Imagine a life reduced to one chair, one window –
outside that window a single tree.
A humble bird cherry, elderly now.
Largely untended its arms all a-tangle, live
ones entwined with others long dead. The whole
shaped and reshaped by winter and winds.
Hear the tree chatter and chunter of seasons,
of storm and of calm, of hoar frost and sunshine.
Hear its bare branches sing of life’s purpose,
its lilting song of spring’s blossom, leaves’ fat buds,
growth, golden fall. Its squirrel-scored
bark a haven for bugs, beetles and grubs.
Dangling low a forest of feeders, stuffed
with seeds, nuts and fat balls. Peanut butter,
dried meal worms on saucers beneath.
See dawn stalk the day, mist cloaked and cool.
Clumsy ghosts move in the mizzle – chubby blobs
set feeders to pitch and sway.

Cool, white sun lurks rather than rises,
shadow shapes morph into birds.
Notice how magpies skulk on high,
how jackdaws gang up, plot a raid. Robins begin day’s
first battle. Blue tits and great tits form great congregations,
busy and busier as they jink and jive. A crew
of longtails, with powder puff bodies bustle,
hustle, fuss about and between. Gymnastic
nuthatch feeds downside up; spotted woodpecker feeds
hard and fast; finches, green, chaff, gaudy gold
twist tiny, sharp beaks into crevice, dried fruit;
blackbird flicks, scatters ground-cover litter; thrush
tracks snails among the silt. A dash, a dart, a sprint
a spurt – turn your eye here, close to the roots – is it pert jenny wren or bold field mouse?
Late afternoon seeps into dusk. Pigeons move in
foreshadowing curfew. Last minute ferment in liminal light.
Stragglers depart. Feeders still. Temperatures fall. Sky darkens. Tree wanes, leaves one window to reflect just one chair.

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The Experiment

In which G F Watts (40) marries Ellen Terry (16) to save her from a life on the stage

Mine was a chill wedding day, but rapt, in sealskin bliss,                         
I saw only coral buttons and white, quilted bonnets.                                       
‘Don’t cry. You’ll make your nose swell,’ my husband’s sage advice.       
I turned my perfect cheek his way, smiled, not knowing                         
I could never be Allegorical Wife                                                               
to stand beside Hope and Love, in Watts’ House of Life.                        

As little Nelly Watts, I marvelled at his world,                                          
calm, low voices, manners refined. Adrift                                     
among sensuous colour, curves, passionate words,                                             
I cared not for their dreams of changing worlds.                                     
Armoured as Galahad, I sensed nothing                                                  
immanent, but dreamed of slaying dragons.                                                        
Galloping alongside Browning from Ghent                                                            
cared nothing for the news, just its music.                                                                                               
Disraeli’s Young England, mere clouds in my sky as I                                         
practised petticoat slides on curving, burnished banister.                                                           

My days of playing pirate, not wife, seeking fun                                                    
not enlightenment, destroyed his dream                                                  
to save me from disorderly life.                                                                 
Heeding whispers from well-meaning friends,                                         
he returned me to my father’s house.                                                       
I railed, stormed, stamped. Incompatibility
of temper’, he said … then left.
Strident voices, a parody of what was lost,
my perfect face mere bagatelle       
in the graceless rooms of my family.                                                         

Once, on a bawdy Brighton street, we met as strangers.                          
‘My how you’ve grown,’ he said, as to a favoured niece

                           

Choosing
Dame Ellen Terry painted by G F Watts at the time of their marriage.

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Wind

I am wind, feel me as water
tracks cheek as tear,
caress as rill, patter shoulder as shower,
sting as storm, toss as swell,
hurl as torrent, slam as tsunami.

I am wind, taste me
sweet on throat as nectar,
tart as lemon, sour as vinegar,
bitter as aloe, dire as foxglove,
final as monkshood

I am wind, see me
tranquil as child’s sleep. Joyous as smile,
mischievous as giggle, dynamic as creation,
agile as flight, resolute as girder,
wrathful, enraged as destruction.

I am wind, hear me
sigh like lover,
murmur as collaborator, chatter as willow,
sing as choir, howl as wolf,
shriek as devastation.

I am wind, colour me
soft white as snow on tongue,
pastel as robin’s egg, lush as forest,
vibrant as vermilion, incandescent as flare
ominous as tar.

I am wind, breathe me
floral sweet, musk as wood,
rich as cherry, sharp as wine,
camphorous as mint, reek as alchemy,
pungent as decay.

I am wind,
find me as stranger, know me as friend,
lean on me as parent, love me as sibling,
bask in me, wallow in me, relish me,
fear me as foe
for I am wind.

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My tribute during lockdown…

;ockdown wave

If not, then what?

I wish there was another word,
a word not so much
devalued. A word to escape the
tarnish of celebrity, the
stain of idolatry, the
banality 0f Saturday sport.

If I could only find a better word, more
able to embrace the
stubborn resolution,
a word to enshrine the valour.
A word to harness the
fathomless grit
of the few.

The few who care, who dare, who
embrace the fear of the many.
Those few, who nurse, who diagnose, who
stop what they are doing to
tenderly
hold a hand.

Those who deliver, who collect, who
serve, distribute, drive, make, invent,
smile and wave, whose names
we’ll never know, who hold
at bay the virus, this
plague of our time.

Hero, tired, timeworn,
both word and worker
but they do not deserve each other.
Hero does not speak to
the majesty
of their gift.

 

Thank you to all of our visible and invisible, known and unkown essential workers

ppe

 

 

 

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Word Less

I used to be a poet –
words would arrive unbidden
(not one for the funny side
though occasionally funny)
now the world of grim
has caught me in
what seems
like
a frantic, who knows how long, game of chase.
 
Time past wasn’t always…even often
kind though I knew it was a possibility, now
when I’m aware of tremendous acts of charity
and kindness, expected and unexpected
now when I turn to words to thank,
to care,
to share,
even to warn
in the face of something terrifyingly
unthinking, unreasoning,strong, virile…and
seemingly inevitable…
 
…now when I see poetry all around
in Spring, doing its thing
in people going beyond and above
on the radio each day to uplift
I
am empty and bow to word less
power of Covid.
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New starts…

via New starts…

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National Poetry Day + 1

For the first time in years National Poetry Day passed and I found myself bereft of words.

As is often the case lacking words of my own sends me scurrying to shelves of poetry books and yet still inspiration proved elusive.

My last experiment in writing was to toy with the guiding principles of the ‘Language Poetry’ movement, if it can be called that…though it seemingly failed to gain purchase on the UK poetry scene.

I found the whole idea of no structure, even no meaning, daunting and could only embrace the idea of borrowing from existing writing yet drilling down to only the words which called out to me as I read.

I returned to an old favourite, Gerard Manley Hopkins and sought inspiration from a letter he wrote to R Bridges in 1871…

…the intelliGent artisan
the too intelligEnt artisan
most inefficacious – stRenuous
heAven protestations
cateRwaul
casanDra-wailings
                                            Moonstone-grindings
secular statesmAn
bat-light and shoot-at veNture
in the midst of pLenty
wrEck and burn
destroYed
nothing but Harm
the spOils
cannot be exPected to care
blacK
and deservedly black-wrIte
                                            No more
no more Summer between

 

The title which best expresses what I felt as I was working was either – As it was, so it is – which is hardly original. Accordingly I have decided on Summer of 2017 instead

 

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Planning a Paradox for a Paragram Prize

Many of you have already written and at least drafted your entry for the Paragram Paradox Prize however, for those who are still thinking and wondering this blog may be just the nudge you need. The…

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The Young Yew

PicMonkey CollageIn benign spring sunshine the field waits, as all fields are waiting, for the burst of bud and spurt of blade to finally wake after the long winter. Dotted about are signs of scattered feed for vanished ponies. An abandoned bucket, its garish pink foreign in the muted landscape, steals the eye. The silence of the field is profound, the thud of pounding hoofs, joyful snicker as winter coats are removed, soft whinny to greet open palms offering apple cores a mournful echo.

Behind the fence at the field’s margin the tree stretches its barely formed, darkly needled branches, as a cat might stretch to greet the unexpected warmth of the sun. The scar on the young yew trunk seeps sweet sap as it rises to greet the call of the season. The sapling is ignorant of the deadliness of its wound.

Hanging in the air are the anguished screams of the girl whose pony sinks to the ground with a sigh. Rendered ungainly in death by the poison in its blood it stumbles, rolls, stops. She falls to the ground by its side, burrows against the fading warmth of its belly. Night’s peace rent by sorrow, harrowed faces leaping by torchlight as the field is cleared of companion ponies. The shadow that remains of the girl almost the last to leave.

Revealed in the scant light of dawn a shape, muffled, beneath grey tarpaulin…and at the extremity of the field the scratchy design of the young, condemned, yew.

The field waits in the Spring sunshine for it knows not what…maybe forgiveness for sparse growth, for not yielding sweet scent strong enough to mask the invitation of rising sap which tempted the horse to nibble poisonous bark.

I wait for time to blunt the screams that woke me in the night, the sight of the dead horse in the field beside my garden which was revealed as the light bled into day.

The yew waits, probably to die from its necklace of exposed core.

 

 

 

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4th March 2016…Oh what a night!

The room was packed and there was a buzz of excitement and not all of it was because of the wine. The Paragram Chapbook Challenge winner and ‘Spotlights’ poets were gathered at the Poet…

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